keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love

Love. Complicated? You bet. It took me almost 30 years to figure out what love is and even now it is easily confused with other things. Watching TV/movies and listening to the radio, it's no wonder it only gets more confusing daily. We don't have good "examples" of love at home or in the media. We look for love in "all the wrong places". We hope that by having sex with someone we will hold on to their love. Have you heard the song that says, "I kissed a girl and I liked it..."? What a mess. God created love and his love is so much more than that. I took time to really do an indepth Bible search of love one time. I was surprised at what I found out. Love was totally not an emotion. It was, however, an action, a couple of them actually. Want to know what they were? Here you go: Forgiveness and Obedience. When God forgave me all my sins, it was his complete and total act of unconditional love for me. When I give all of myself to my Father (heavenly father/God) in obedience to his will/ways, then I gain knowledge of what love is and it spills over into my daily life. I can't stop it, it just does because I'm so full of that joy. The books of 1-3 John really lay that out well if you wanna read if it for yourself.


There is a song on the radio now (secular, you really can find God at work everywhere), that almost captivates me every time I hear it. I must be a song inspired by God and not just by lust. It very much reminds me of where I once was and how much I've grown. I have never been a "perfect" Christian and I know I never will be. I walked around for YEARS holding other people at arms length because I was afraid of getting hurt. I think I must have missed out on the real love and friendship of so many wonderful people. God came into my heart. He opened the parts that I had been holding shut. He showed me what love is and where to find it. He set my heart free to love. I don't know if Leona meant for her song to read/sound like a testimony, but it does. Here are the lyrics to this song:

Leona Lewis, "Keep Bleeding Love"
Closed off from love I didn't need the pain,
Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain,
Time starts to pass Before you know it you're frozen.
But something happened For the very first time with you ,
My heart melted into the ground Found something true
And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing, You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open

And it's draining all of me, Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars For everyone to see
I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing, You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love